Remembering Dad....

I've procrastinated all day. Well, not really....just here on the blog. I had planned on coming here and doing this great entry to remember Dad. Since today would have been my parents' 41st anniversary I thought it would be nice to say something about it....

I found it harder than I thought and am just now sitting down to type.

Yesterday was rough. I guess it was the day all my emotions came to a head and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I do that sometimes when I think of Dad. It's usually at the weirdest moments during the day too. I remember last year Dad had just come home form the hospital in time to share the day with Mom. He had had his first round of interleukin and was so sick. I remember feeling relieved that he was home and so proud to have parents that had a relationship that could span over so many years.

I know Mom spent the day surrounded by close friends, doing things to keep her mind off of her sadness. I did talk to her today and she seemed in good spirits. I just couldn't help but think that it wasn't a call to say "Happy Anniversary" but rather to check in on her and see that she was okay. I can't imagine the emotions she goes through on a daily basis. I know I find myself feeling just as lost and sad some days as I did the day Dad died. It's such a raw feeling that feels like it will never get better.

*Sigh*

I'm sure Dad watches over us and knows we are wishing he was here just so we could say "Happy Anniversary" again.

Love you Dad.....

Hellooooo Baby!

I had another ultrasound done on the 13th. I ended up going to the appointment alone because Lou wasn't home.....but it's all good. What they found is that Hannah is laying breech right now. The doctor said not to worry too much as she still has 6 weeks to flip over. Stubborn already and she hasn't even been born yet! Ha! Anyway, so far so good. She's 4 pounds and 13 ounces and I was able to count all of her toes....plus she has a full head of hair! Woohoo! The doc says he doens't think she'll reach 8 pounds by birth, which to me is quite okay.

If she decides to stay in this breech position I will be scheduled for a c-section. I have another 3 weesk before my next ultrasound to find out what the next move will be. I do have an appointment for a check up on the 26th though so we'll see what they say then.

So now I know why I've been having pain and pressure galore in my (very) lower abdomen...little darling has made my bladder into a kickboxing bag. Ah well....maybe she'll come out a super soccer star after all!

Date Night and other stuff...

Lou and I went out saturday night to the movies. We stopped for dinner first and then went to see Fred Claus. Lou and I are both fans of Vince Vaughn. He has yet again made quite a funny movie. While his charactors are not much different form each other, he always gives a good laugh. Cute movie!

In other news, we have a "Parenting Prep" class tomorrow night at the hospital. It's only a little over an hour long so we'll see what kind of info they can give us to really help prepare us for child care. Thursday I have my next doctor appointment. I'm supposed to have an ultrasound. I'm pretty excited for that. Hannah is moving around a lot and kicking the crap out of my lower abdomen. Makes walking up even slight inclines pretty difficult.

The new air chamber for my side of the bed just came! Woohoo!! Now more waking up in a crater anymore! Yippee!!

Ack! White stuff everywhere!

We've been hit with several snow storms in the last few days. I think we have roughly 6 inches out there now. This is a bit early for our area and a lot of snow at one time for us. The dogs are having a blast playing in it and the horses seem pleased to be freed of swatting flies. I don't mind it too much.....yet....just because it hasn't been super cold and I've started "running" warmer than I used to. The girl who loved to pile on tons of blankets at bedtime can hardly stand a sheet!
Lou and I were walking back form the barn tonight when he grabbed a handful of snow and packed a perfect snowball for the dogs to chase after. Then he mentioned that he thought it seemed like perfect snow to make a snowman. So we made one! I can't remember the last time I made a snowman. Imagine, me, 8 months preggers and him.....a "big kid" out there making a snowman in the dark. We had a ball. He even went back to the barn for a carrot to top off the face of our snow charactor. The dogs didn't know what to think of it but still got a kick out of trying to find the ball we threw for them.
It was a good time.
I think tomorrow night we are going on a date....dinner and a movie and then to a friend's house to visit. Can't wait!

You can't just have one!

One day last week I was at the racetrack when a trainer came up to me and told me he had a horse he wanted to sell. This is the same guy I bought my horse "Blake" from so I figured the horse might be nice and also possibly cheap. Since I'm always on the look out for horses to resell for show, I told him to give me a call after the horse runs and I'd come and take a look. So he told Lou he was ready to sell when he saw him a few days ago. I went to the track yesterday afternoon and ended up buying the horse.

His name is "Private Sword" and he's four years old. Pretty unsuccessful at the track having run only four times and making a whopping $300. I've been trying to think of a barn name for him that has something to do with swords or soldiers.....even did some research on names of swords but nothing seems to fit.

This horse seems like he's going to be pretty nice. He's a bit shy and worried right now but he hasn't had much spoiling from his groom at the track. So hopefully a little kindness will help him relax. He's related to my filly Sealy (which is one of the reasons I bought him) and I hope he'll make someone a nice riding horse.

Anyway, here are some pictures of "the new guy" who needs a name. Suggestions welcome!

The Nursery is finished!

After digging through layer after layer of cardboard, styrofoam and plastic I finally uncovered the pieces to the crib. It took me 45 minutes just to get it unpacked. Once that was finished, assembly wasn't real complicated. I think I have pretty much everything arranged how I like it.....I just need to buy a glider chair and a small end table. I think it would be good to put the table in next to a chair so I can set the bottle warmed on it or whatever I might need to have close during feedings.

Here is the crib complete with all the "fixins"

A closer look:

The dresser/changing table:

The quilt Mom bought:


And the closet door complete with coat hanger:

Now I just have a few bits of clothing and things to put away and all will be finished.
I don't know why but on my screen the walls look pink. They are actually light blue.